琴晚發生左d估都估唔到既野...管佢佢又話我管住哂...好啦...琴晚我唔管佢...佢話食飯前返...又唔返...話返左好耐...都冇返...我都冇打去煩佢...佢話整埋船返...但唔知點解整整下船去左釣墨魚...我都冇嘈....12點幾話返黎...返到2點幾...先返到...我打比佢問佢拎cancan電話...佢又唔肯比我...cancan係我個fd黎又唔係佢個fd..都唔肯比~~一返到黎就發癲...搶我電話...我唔肯比...跟住比佢拎到之後...佢就打去鬧我d fd...又唔比我走...仲對我做左d從未做過既野....佢仲話我發癲...但我冇發癲...係佢對我做左果樣野之後我先發癲...係到大叫同喊....有時我真係唔明佢想點...管佢又話我管住哂...唔想我管...但唔管佢唔理佢...對佢講野冷冷淡淡...佢中意做咩就做咩...唔理唔成...佢就唔知做咩...琴晚我喊左好耐...唔知點解喊極都有眼淚流出黎...果一刻真係分唔到個身痛定個心痛....之後佢不停同我say sorry...仲同我講....『以後淨係車船先出去...車完船就即刻返黎...其他日子淨係陪我...出去玩淨係得我同hugo...唔洗車船果陣條key比我keep...車完船d銀包電話比哂我keep...唔再掂毒品咩毒品都唔掂....佢地打比佢叫佢出去玩佢都唔會去...咩都唔做淨係車船令願慢慢搵錢同我過南非....咩都唔洗我做...會變返之前咁對我...咩都比哂我...』我真係唔知信唔信好...因為佢每次講呢d說話果陣佢都呃我...我個心真係好亂好亂...我應該點做!?信唔信佢好!?個心就叫我去信佢...但個腦就叫我唔好信佢...我真係好煩....好煩...真係想離開香港抖下氣...我就黎會比呢到攪到我抖唔到氣.....

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今日我好唔開心...因為佢又想留低我一個人~~佢就出去同佢d兄弟朋友玩......每當我諗到佢應成我既野同埋所做既野...我就好唔開心.好想喊......琴晚佢同我講佢會控制到自己...唔想我管住佢...我希望佢真係做得到~~因為其實管住一個人真係好辛苦..成日要諗佢係到做緊咩~~會唔會又hi到大哂呢~!?會唔會又出事呢?有時我真係會係到諗..究竟我係佢心入面係咪一d都唔重要..但每次我嬲到要走又或者走左果陣..佢就會好唔開心...我真係好想我地2個可以開開心心咁..但我諗都幾難~~因為岩岩佢d兄弟朋友叫佢出去玩..佢就問佢可唔可以出去而唔係問我去唔去...果一刻我個心好酸好酸..之後我問佢..我地琴晚講過d咩..佢話我地琴晚講過好多野...唔知我講邊樣...我就話你話唔日日咩?佢答到我丫...我好開心跟住我再同佢講琴晚你話一星期只會出一日係同佢d兄弟朋友玩...其實今日我想我地2個同埋個仔出去沙灘玩嫁...因為我真係想我地一齊去玩..而冇第2個人係到..我地真係未試過咁去玩...但佢話唔會去...我就係到諗..究竟佢係咪覺得我煩.定係由頭到尾佢都冇諗過同我2個去玩呢!?我真係好想知道......究竟佢個心入面係係到諗緊咩呢??好陌生...真係好陌生~~之前佢唔會咁嫁...我知佢真係好想搵錢...但如果要用陪我既時間黎換好多好多既錢既話...我令願唔要咁多錢...我令願要佢陪我...其實有好多野我都唔明...點解我為佢做咁多野...都比唔上佢d兄弟朋友所講既一句說話...前果排...佢令願要佢d兄弟朋友都唔要我...日日發脾氣出去...夜晚返到黎就冇野...果排我真係好辛苦...好想死...其實我真係好想佢陪我既時間多過同佢d兄弟朋友既時間...我同佢傾過...我真係好想去南非讀鑽石...呢樣野我真係想左好耐...佢同我講搵埋今季錢就過去....我唔知佢講既係真定假...我真係好想知...之前佢講既每一句野我都信嫁....但由我發現佢成日講大話呃我開始我就唔信佢啦...我真係好想知佢邊句真邊句假....我已經分唔到啦...諗返之前...同佢真係好開心...日日出相入對咁...去到邊都帶埋我...又唔會發我脾氣,大聲同我講野,發癲,無論我點佢都會氹我...但而家...唔同哂啦...成日發我脾氣,大聲鬧我,氹多陣都唔想氹啦...真係好唔開心...好想離開...但一諗到佢之前對我咁好...我就好唔捨得...但係唔係人變左就真係唔會變返好既呢???我唔知點解...成日都有個希望...就係希望佢會變返好...變返好似之前咁對我...應成我既野真係會做到....我成日都覺得會有呢一日...但會唔會到我離開呢個世界果日都未等到呢!?我成日咁比藉口自己又係岩定錯!?我d朋友又會唔會嬲我咁既決定??我知道因為我攪到好多麻煩比你地...真係對唔住...但我....真係唔知我應該點做...有冇人可以比d見意我???